This post was originally published on Sarah's essential oil website, here.
My life has been a whirlwind over the past few weeks. I went to Croatia, met some wonderful people, and one in particular who has turned my world around.
I'm in the process of making the move to Germany. It's not easy, as I'm also running my dog training business in the UK and looking for someone to buy that. A foot well and truly in two camps. In my dusty brain I am prising words from pre O-level classes and a particularly boring evening class where I messed about far too much. I never thought I could learn a language but I will now. I spend far too much time driving in my current job and so podcasts will be playing -- if anyone sees me chatting to myself on the M25 that's what I'm doing.
I'm learning a lot about myself. I've made mistakes and hurt people I care about, never intentionally but I have. I'd like to say here and now how sorry I am for that. However I have a new life that I'm building now. I'm proud to be with my new partner and refuse to feel guilty about it.
Friends have been a revelation. Some close friends aren't going to be close any longer and others I thought I'd lost touch with have been a source of such support and love. They have shared their own stories and it's amazing how many people have gone through the same experience. Spare beds have been offered, sage advice given, Kleenex at the ready.
And my family.... have gone above and beyond. My mum has welcomed her 47-year-old daughter back to her spare room. My sister has been brilliant as always, but acted as a go-between when matters got really nasty. I'm so lucky to have them. I know that isn't always the case.
I never thought I would have kids. I had an early menopause and the one past relationship we discussed it in was never an appropriate place to bring children into. However there are happy faces in Germany, tantrums, hugs, school pickups and weird board games where I haven't got a clue what I'm doing. Not a replacement Mum or Dad, but a little help to both.
I have left my own 4-footed kids behind. It's been one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do. I know they are truly loved with my ex and that she will give them all that they need. I will see them when I can.
Because Sarah and I met through the oils, I have been reticent about talking about them of late. That may sound strange but it's true. Like they are some evil force which breaks up marriages. The truth is completely the opposite of course. They support your systems and allow you to see clearly. I wouldn't be writing this now if it wasn't for them. So thank you Joy, Deep Relief and many others too!
It's strange how life takes a turn. Sarah and I have had all sorts thrown at us over the past few weeks. We are coping....no, more than that....we are getting stronger. The time away is hard. Thank goodness for Wi-Fi and Skype at service stations!
This started out as a blog about the differences between the UK and Germany. Well, that can come later. This one was important....